I have NO idea what happened. Sometime during the night, my body seemed to take a turn for the worse. My husband in the middle of the night asked if I was okay. I apparently kept moaning in my sleep. This morning when I awoke, I could barely move. I felt like my body had been hit by a truck. Breathing and blinking took all the energy I could muster. "How am I going to function today?" I thought. I asked my husband to get me another Advil .. hoping that would at least help a little. In about an hour, I was able to move a little. My eldest son helped me out (before leaving for University for the day) by making me an egg and coffee in bed. So here I sit, borrowing his laptop in my bed, at 10:00am. I'm at least able to sit up now without feeling like I'm going to pass out. I'll really have to be proactive to keep on top of my Advil dosing today! Seeking out something to give me a positive focus on my day, I thought I'd type in "daily devotional" into my laptop search engine. Normally you would be given a list of search results to choose from. Rather than a list of options, it went straight to a web page which promptly loaded on my screen (http://odb.org/2011/01/11/why-not-now/). I thought it was very odd that it went directly to a website rather than giving me google's results. I really didn't expect it to have much relevance since I wasn't able to "choose" which page I wanted to see. Contrary to my assumptions, it was very fitting to thoughts which often pop into my head. I thought I would share it with you today.
Why Not Now?
January 11, 2011 — by David H. Roper
I have a dear friend who served as a missionary in Suriname for many years, but in his final years he was stricken with an illness that paralyzed him. At times he wondered why God allowed him to linger. He longed to depart and to be with his Lord.
Perhaps life is very hard for you or a loved one, and you are wondering why God has allowed you or your loved one to linger. When Jesus said He was going to heaven, Peter asked, “Lord, why can I not follow You now?” (John 13:37). You, like Peter, may wonder why entry into heaven has been postponed: “Why not now?”
God has a wise and loving purpose in leaving us behind. There is work to be done in us that can only be accomplished here on earth. Our afflictions, which are for the moment, are working for us “a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory” (2 Cor. 4:17). And there is work to be done for others—if only to love and to pray. Our presence may also be for the purpose of giving others an opportunity to learn love and compassion.
So, though you may desire release for yourself or a loved one, to live on in the flesh can mean fruitfulness (Phil. 1:21). And there is comfort in waiting: Though heaven may be delayed, God has His reasons. No doubt about it!
Not so in haste, my heart!
Have faith in God, and wait;
Although He seems to linger long
He never comes too late. —TorreyOur greatest comfort is to know that God is in control.
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amazing that you came across the devotional. God is speaking to you. Thinking about you lots. If there is anything I can do I am in the church directory, email me. HUGS