On day 4 of Amantadine.  It's supposed to help with energy levels.  I think it *might* be working as I have been able to stay out of bed the last few days, albeit with some effort.   I really hate taking drugs, but if my life will consist of staying in bed all the time, I don't see what other option I have.

Still dealing with emotional issues which make my perspective on life a bit more dark.  Finding myself at times suppressing my emotional side so that I don't have to deal with it.  I'm really at a loss as to how to look at heart issues without cracking under the pain of it.  I haven't been able to figure it out over the past year, so I'm not too optimistic that I'll figure it out any time soon.  I hope that I can .. because it makes life feel very long.

Pain levels are pretty low right now, just the internal toxic feeling which hasn't really gone away over the past few weeks. Numbness is still all there and going strong.  Fatigue is still strong and it's a constant battle with fighting depression about where my body and life is going.

Finally got my parking permit this week, so at least I can park close to a store's door on days when I feel all I can do is crawl from one place to the next.