It's hard to believe it's been a year since my due date. Still feels like I heard the words "no heartbeat" just weeks ago. Oh how I wish I were celebrating your 1st birthday, my precious one. Jesus, please give my baby a big hug from me!

How was it to be that I now am robbed of such joy?
Of watching you grow or finding out if you’re a girl or boy.
Never did I get to hear your cries or even see your tears,
Or kiss your little brow and hug away your fears.

I am just left here now with pain and few memories,
Of the days that were happy with you inside of me.
For you were loved and wanted oh so much,
What I would give just to have felt your touch.

The hours crawl by yet the time does not seem to slow,
I want to scream out to the world you are gone, why don’t they know?
How is the world still turning when I feel it should have stopped?
Why are people laughing and living when it feels like I can not?

Not enough tears can be shed to express the love I have for you,
No words can describe what I all wanted to be able to do.
I would have just held you and breathed in your sweet smell,
Shouted with joy and phoned all the people I wanted to tell.

But this time I called loved ones with the sad sad news,
That too little were you to live among us and I was meant to lose.
But nothing will ever erase those twelve weeks we had together,
For a piece of my heart you now hold always and forever.
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6 Responses
  1. Miss-buggy Says:

    not sure if my comment went through.

    But happy Birthday to your precious little Angel. I believe that you will see baby again in heaven. That Jesus is holding baby. I pray that you feel peace and love in this time. A heart ache no one should have to go through. Hugs and peace hun. (hugs)

  2. debbie Says:

    I am choked up reading this beautiful poem, which has come straight from your heart.
    What a painful time for you.
    With prayers ... Debbie

  3. luella Says:

    This is such a poignant entry, Dawna. I wonder if you have read Angie Smith's blog 'Bring the Rain' . Her husband is the lead singer with Selah. Selah recorded a beautiful song about the love of a parent for a lost child, recorded after their loss. Your poem so reminded me of it.

    Your little one will be in your heart forever. We love our little grandchild who died in utero at 22 weeks. Never held, never seen by us, but loved and remembered forever.

  4. Anonymous Says:

    Such a beautiful poem. Our precious Lord Jesus is right where you are. He listens to your every word and thought and carries you when you don't have the strength to stand. I trust His word, He brought me through the loss of two babies. Over the years He has lessened my sadness (thank you Jesus), His words are truth.
    Luke6:21 Blessed are ye that hunger now; for ye shall be filled. Blessed are ye that weep now; for ye shall laugh.
    God bless!!

  5. Kerri-Anne Hinds Says:

    FWI this poem is Copywrited and written by me (Kerri-Anne Hinds). I am glad it has brought you comfort and was written for my Son Sam that we lost. (((HUGS))) So sorry for your loss.

  6. Unknown Says:

    Kerri-Anne, I am sorry I did not see any copyright when I found your poem. It was such an amazing poem and yes it was so appropriate in my situation. I did change a few words to fit my situation. Thank you for letting me use your words to express what is so hard to express. I am too sorry for your loss of Sam.